I Still Love You

Dear Pearl,

I saw your profile in friendster today. I thought I have already lost my feelings with you the day we part at our high school graduation. For me, you were the beautiful creature on earth. I loved you but I can never say it to you face to face . Today, when I viewed your newly added photographs, I realize that I am still in love with you.

Remember the day when we became friends? It was the first day of our freshmen intramurals. We were not involved in any sport activities. I guess we are not the sporty type. We spent the whole monday talking to each other - only you and I. We ate lunch together. Naive as we were, we enjoyed sitting under the shade of the mahogany tree, slapping each other using our face towels, and comparing our day's baon.

I laugh remembering the day when ou brought with you handcuffs just for fun. You tied me in the steel pole using those cuffs. You tied me there for 30 minutes. You told me later that you were just thinking of me as Jack of Titanic and you, the Rose. With what you have said, I embark myself into the illusion of love.

But you were too perfect, too smart, too angelic. I was too innocent, too young, too devilish. I even wrote in a withered leaf: "If you are the heaven and I am the hell, I would reach for you. I would rather suffer a thousand lifetime just to be with you. Cheesy - yes cheesy is a man who falls in love.

Your classmates do not see us as the perfect pair. They would always pair you with Eduardo or Gamotin or Cedric. What will I fight for? They are rich, handsome, and charismatic. I can't reach their level because I have no time and money to tidy up myself. I only receive ten pesos a day as allowance. That is just enough for a 5-peso viand and a 2-way fare.

If I would have courted you, I don't have money to spend for dates. Only one peso is left for me everyday. What would you expect me to buy using that? Two chewing gums? One for you? One for me?

You were born with a silver spoon. I was born with no spoon at all. Your classmates find me ugly. you are very pretty. Believe me, I did not love you just because you had a pretty face. I have loved you because you had a very charismatic heart and appearance.

Why Pearl? Why did you leave me alone after the one week intramurals? Why did you have a boyfriend without even waiting for me? Why does my heart beat every time a thought of you will appear in my mind?

For six years, I've kept my love. I told no one. Nobody will understand. That includes you.

And today, after 6 years, I realize that I still love you. When will you ever be mine, Pearl?