My Lovelife

By: Seph Capaque

It's been almost 22 years since my naked being breathe my very first air. I say life is so generous for providing me the comforts a human being would love to have. I have survived all the aspects of life. I do not possess all the qualities that I wish I should have but in every area whether physical or spiritual or what have you, I say I am average: not so magnaminous, not so little.

One of the areas in my life that I say I am average is the aspect of emotion. When it comes to emotional support, I run to my families and friends. I admit. I don't know that much when it comes to romantic relationship. Well, I know the theories of love, courtship, and marriage but not the practical application of it.

You should know that I am a member of the NGSB (No Girlfriend Since Birth) club. The reason behind this is I am an over-obedient (if there is such word) son. During my childhood days, my daily routine starts from home, then school, then back home again. Nothing is in between: no physical games, no extracurricular activities, no sports (which I regretted), no barkada, and no love life.

I shared with you my first attempt of courting here. I find it silly when I recall how I was so deeply infatuated with Therese. I write her name at every page of my Literature book. I always dream of her smile everyday. I even wet myself -seriously- just thinking about her. Sadly, I am a member of the BS (Bugnaw Simud) club. With BS, we mean stupid persons who can't express the ravaging feelings they keep inside for that special someone. I remember that time when she passes by our clasroom, I become as stiff as a rock. My pivot points harden. My eyes are glued with epoxy. My heart is only the thing that is moving.

Nice try little boy. You don't even have money to buy your projects!

If ever I have courted Therese that time, will she ever give back the love that I will offer? Will she agree that we only have fishballs and synthetic pineapple juice as food for our date? Will she let me borrow 50 pesos per date? Will we be married by now?

It's been 22 years since my existence. Ironically, romance still does not exist for me.

Gugmang gi-ahak! aha man ka gipadpad! Where art thou? Letsugas!



Writer's Note: Watch out for the narration of my High School love life only here!