Endless Stream

Can somebody please stop my mind from thinking? Endless streams of thoughts are gushing out of it now that I am afraid I will be having an information overload.

I was trying to sleep but my brain won't let me. My body was dead tired but my brain was constantly sending neurological impulses. Ideas of self-improvement, theology, narcissism, love, lust, and ambitions bombarded my otherwise peaceful night.

During those reflection times, I travelled to worlds of adult fantasy. I thought I have totally lost the ability to create euphoria when I left childhood. Childhood dreams are full of pure innocence, determined, and clean. Adult fantasies are submerged in puddle of selfish bleakness, unsure, and stained. Adult fantasies are even connoted with lust!

I tried to halt this stream once. It resulted to degradation of my sanity. Forcibly stopping it will short circuit the systems all around my body that even my white blood cells can't repair.

If this endless stream will do me good, I may decide to embrace it.